Happy 牛year!!!

Sian!!! my first day collect although it reached my target of around 150 which i got 158, i'm still unhappy that this year i got lesser than last year argh! i still got one 50 buck hidden somewhere in my house thanks to my uncle who like hide n seek if i got this 50 then i'm over my target le hahaha maybe i will get more when my dad come back from penang carrying hong bao from my aunties there....but i wonder where is the 50 buck hmmmm.....can anyone help me with this n if i found it where u suggested then i will treat u to a meal......deal?

hmmmm.....i'm wondering

why my i not needed? why do i even care about others feelings when they dun care about mine? why should i be nice to them when they arent nice to me? why i have no guts to scold ppl when they hurt me or hurt my pride, maybe i just dun want to hurt their feelings but why m i being so nice to them why??? i hate ppl who assume things n say it without noing anything or like they no anything about me.....why m i the only one suffering this ordeal? why do i contiune forgiving ppl even if they push the limits? why m i so miserable? maybe being miserable is better.....maybe not caring for others feeling is better....maybe being an ass/jerk is better....kamo.....kamo.........