ppl from the dark side

yoda: dun fall into the dark side (something like that i guess)

we often have only two path to go to, the white side n the dark side, becoz of failure, mistake, ppl choose the dark side as it will help them get over the depression, sadness, anguish, despair. y? i cant understand y going to the dark side is a better choice...zen zen rikai dekinai...

i find it abit silly for ppl to come ask me for advice n keep asking the same thing for a few times n doesnt seem to use my adivce, for what?? first thing, if u dun intend to use my adivce why ask me, second, if dun want to use my advice, why ask me again n again, n all i tell u is the same thing...

ppl cannot take sadness? cannot take bitterness? cannot take pain? y is human so afraid of losing, so afraid of being the weakest, always wanting to win, if cant than they will fall into the darkside n start condenming themshelves n what advice we tell them will be useless they will always be thinking of the negative stuffs, naze da? hontou ni zen zen wakaranai...

does darkness always win light? among all the ppl i no, thats the case sigh....the human mind is just so wanting to have everything good, not able to want to have stress all this....like waking up in the morning, i think waking up in the morning is the easiest stuff for me, its like alarm clock rings"oh wake up le get down brush ur teeth wash ur face n get ready to go out" but alot of ppl just press the alarm clock n falls back into sleep.

for me i think a person appearance is less important, if that person is not good looking but have a nice personality do u still distance urself with him even though he is not good looking or u rather make friends with a person who is so handsome but have a very bad personality...i thing that when judging a person, we shouldnt judge that person by his looks, its not his fault anyway its his gene that make him look like that, but instead we should look at this personality. i must agree that first impression is not correct, u dun no a person through first impression instead u no a person when u know each other for a long time.

above is my feelings about human beings not a ans about them, cant really fully understand human beings at all.....ningen no koto yoku wakaranai

友 情の絆

I watch yugioh 5d's n realise that there is a unbreakable bond between us true friends, that is the friendship bond. my bonds can never be broken with my friends even if we quarrel over somethings, the friendship bond is something special n i shall treasure it. ya i'm very random de haha. My friends are my mirrors, they reflect my wrong doings n help me change or rather let me change myself, either way, i need friends thats y the 友 情の絆

mr tall guy

although its very blur but u can see a very tall guy with mask, this one is abit weird coz when i give him HI5, u purposely missed it haha but still his fun too, n i like the crab one coz he was holding a banner n vibrating well walking haha looks damn funny all three of them

take it lightly

i just had a chat with the c chess pro from nyp n one thing that he said was quite interesting to me was, "dun take it so hard, like me i take it lightly n i m on the next level of strength.." i'm like hmmm maybe thats y i'm stuck here, maybe becoz i take it so hard....i want to try one game where i can just take it lightly n play without worries of making the wrong move or what....

Giving up is just so easy....

y can ppl just say"oh its too hard, i'm too tired, i want to quit" so easily?? giving up is so easy, but if u give up once, u will choose to give up every time something bad happen, something u cant cope with ur life, like studying, like weiqi ETC.....y do ppl think negatively?? y cant they turn the bad things that happened to them into a motivation to make sure that they wont let something this bad happen again....if they just choose to give up like that, then i can say that they are not living. i dun want my friends to give up, to have no confident, to have no fighting spirit, to have no dreams, to have no goals......isnt life without all this, just a empty vessel.....i will try my best to talk to my friends who are giving up not to give up.....i care becoz they are my friends, haha sometimes i think that they are unfortunate to have met me, becoz if they want to quit/give up, i wont let them give up so easily....

upset

what have i been doing this few yrs? i'm happy for my friends around me who have been improving alot but i'm damn sad that i have been stuck here for so long....my progress is like slower than a snail can be, sigh! whenever i think about this, i want to just quit school n play weiqi from day to night n night to day, but i cant.......june term break can i have time for weiqi....sadly no....got projects n projects n extra tutions...DAMN! if time permits, i want to spend everyday with weiqi....seriously, i dun want to be the only person left behind well all my friends improve n move on without me....n my school club requires me to teach my juniors which i can use that time to train on weiqi, but i no its a obligation to teach my juniors.....if only some of them is as "guai" as others, than at least i will enjoy teaching them......

if anyone want to go to genting this june, please tell me becoz i want to go there to shout my voice out on the coaster rides.....its not good to keep everything in the bottom of my heart, like that will go bonkers de haha....for my friends who have been improving alot, please contiune to improve! dun wait for me, coz one day i will catch up to u guys de :)

First Date (Review)

There is so many things to say i want to say here, but i cant say in order so i will jump here jump there de.....yurika n alvin thanks for the tips anyway although i can feel it didnt go well....han siong is just so straight...how can u get a GF like that lol.....he told me that "now u no how boring ur life is" haha...ok i shall write down from the start to the very end now n yurika n alvin please review it for me thanks!

the time is all esitmated base on rough memories of looking at my hp for time check...

10: Reached jurong east n walk around to see if there is any decent shops to have lunch but its all coffee shop there, so i sian n go popular see around...

1050: she told me that she is at toa payoh now, which we suppose to meet at 11 but never mind i told her its a ladies privilage to make a guy wait for them haha n so i readed up on a book that teaches u how to talk what to talk what to do all this...

12: she smsed me saying she arrived n i just finish all those that i need to read up upon n i went up to fetch her....(yurika i'm so sorry i didnt say "u r cute" when i see her, i just said hello -_-) n then we walk to the coffee shop, while walking i wasnt the one doing all the questioning which i should, but its her that ask all the question argh failed here....

1230: she said that i'm a rare "spieces" becoz normally at sec 3 is where guys turn bad but i turned good lol.......we finished our lunch n walked to science center for the Da Vinci exibition(which later i screwed up-_-) we went to the exibition area to purchase the tickets n(alvin i'm sorry but i didnt offer to buy her tickets -_-) i was quite interested n excited about this exibition....the first thing outside the exibition is a bridge made up of only wood stack together, i was really amaze by how he did it....up next is the intro to da vinci, it seems that i have not done my homework like what wen jun asked me to do, READ UP ON DA VINCI!!!!!! which is the part where is think i screwed up....she asked me about a portait n asked me whats so special about this, i seriously cant ans(han siong please lah i cant talk lame thing down there lah just cant, i cant talk things that i can with GUYS! not girls -_-) the main thing is about the little angel at the lower left corner, she said that this is the main focus of this art n she said that the angels look smarter than any other angels on the art, i was very amaze that she knew all this n this is where she thinks that i "suck" she asked me i watch alot of anime but cant see the expression of the angel, i was like errr it never came across my mind, n this is where she kept quiet n the whole thing is so screwed....but, leonardo is really a genuis of his time, he invented the portable piano which i think is damn cool lah, n he invented a drum wagon which is use for war, the invention was so cool man n simple to use...next is the mirror room(i think she asked me to go inside the mirror room but i didnt hear clearly so didnt go in -_-) than we started to go seperate ways to see different things, but feeling tells me that i should stand by her n walk with her to see the things she wants to see....(mirror room is so cool, u can see urself from any direction just by facing one mirror i wished i had that so that i can see the back of my head haha) she asked me whether its boring, n i said no but it seems its not trust worthy enough coz(she asked me again n again later><)at first i thought that the invention i saw was a helicopter but i see that the propeller cant turn one around becoz got thing stuck there n when i saw the really ancestors helicopter, it was just shocking, how do u fly that thing man lol...basically i tried to talk to her but something tells me that she is not interested anymore.....

3: i did something so stupid! i wanted to sms alvin for help but i send too fast n it was send to her -_- i rush to her saying that i send wrong msg n please dun read, BAKA HOUSE!!! wha here i nearly cui diao...n i walk away to see other invention...if only i had see this exibition last yr i would have done a special parachute for my PD module n get A haha..........i think she saw the msg n came n ask me whether its boring again, n i said no but she say its boring for her ><><><) we talk alot here..........at IMM we went to a japan house to buy her CD, u no its hard to ans this question call(what do u like about weiqi)i totally just tell her that i dunno what i like about weiqi just like weiqi lor....baka? n she say that i should seriously change the way i teach her n others.....i'm not good at teaching? after she finish buying things, she told me that i'm rigid(dunno what that means)& very (not relax) n tell me to relax....n i asked her whether have she go out with other ppl before n she asked me is this my first time going out with a girl n YES><><......we went up to take the train luckily i was able to board the train with her(alvin insists that i must send her home)......she is such a random girl lah, suddenly we talking about this but than she can suddenly jump to another topic de lol......after a few stop she asked me whether i'm sending her home.....i quietly replied yes....anyway i think the train ride is the best but she keep telling me that the more we talk the more we no our differences n the more we are away from each others....(isnt it the little imperfection in ones life that make it perfect for u? isnt it these differences that make us able n want to understand each other more? isnt similarity the one that make us have nothing to talk about? if we are all similar, wont we not need to communicate and able to no what u are thinking? i think she is just confuse about life.....)

6++: at toa payoh, she wanted to stop me from going out but i just walk straight out of the gate(hee hee i pretend not to hear what she is saying n walk out of the gate ><) this is the part where is screwed up badly....the stuff we are talking about, i really wanted to help her out as a friend, dun wanting her to give up n she offered a thing i can help her with, is to translate a chinese books she wants to read so much that she asked her dad to read it but only a few pages.........n so we went to the library to read books.....she ask me to read a book but i cant read a few characters n she just say NVM its ok....(giving up is so easy, but what about not giving up. success comes to those who doesnt give up on things becoz its hard to do it, try liking it......anyway i think she doesnt trust my words:( rather she trust others.....) after that she looked angry n parted ways at the mrt station......

The End....Thanks for the day! i enjoyed it...its very long but...got things to review? i think she is a very nice girl, daring, like to ask alot of questions, interesting......i want to understand her more to help her.... anyway i think i did badly for the first time(surprisingly i wasnt nervous at all yurika)....she says she enjoys it but i can feel that she isnt....sorry about it!

the one hr++ train ride, i have been thinking....weiqi!, until i graduate from nyp.....see u guys next sat:D only 4 names were mention in the post...

Selfless love

Here’s a true life story that I’m going to share with you - Selfless Love.
If this little child could do it, so could YOU! Here you go:
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My wife called, ‘How long will you be with that newspaper? Will you come here and make your darling daughter eat her food?
I tossed the paper away and rushed to the scene. My only daughter, Sindu, looked frightened; tears were welling up in her eyes. In front of her was a bowl filled to its brim with curd rice. Sindu is a nice child, quite intelligent for her age.
I cleared my throat and picked up the bowl. ‘Sindu, darling, why don’t you take a few mouthful of this curd rice? Just for Dad’s sake, dear’.
Sindu softened a bit and wiped her tears with the back of her hands. ‘Ok, Dad. I will eat - not just a few mouthfuls, but the whole lot of this. But, you should…’ Sindu hesitated. ‘Dad, if I eat this entire curd Rice, will you give me whatever I ask for?’
‘Promise’. I covered the pink soft hand extended by my daughter with mine, and clinched the deal. Now I became a bit anxious. ‘Sindu, dear, you shouldn’t insist on getting a computer or any such expensive items. Dad does not have that kind of money right now. Ok?’
‘No, Dad. I do not want anything expensive’. Slowly and painfully, she finished eating the whole quantity. I was silently angry with my wife and my mother for forcing my child to eat something that she detested. After the ordeal was through, Sindu came to me with her eyes wide with expectation. All our attention was on her. ‘Dad, I want to have my head shaved off, this Sunday!’ was her demand.
‘Atrocious!’ shouted my wife, ‘A girl child having her head shaved off? Impossible!’
‘Never in our family!’ My mother rasped. ‘She has been watching too much of television. Our culture is getting totally spoiled with these TV programs!’
‘Sindu, darling, why don’t you ask for something else? We will be sad seeing you with a clean-shaven head.’
‘Please, Sindu, why don’t you try to understand our feelings?’ I tried to plead with her.
‘Dad, you saw how difficult it was for me to eat that Curd Rice’. Sindu was in tears. ‘And you promised to grant me whatever I ask for. Now, you are going back on your words. Was it not you who told me the story of King Harishchandra, and its moral that we should honor our promises no matter what?’
It was time for me to call the shots. ‘Our promise must be kept.’
‘Are you out of your mind?’ chorused my mother and wife.
‘No. If we go back on ourpromises, she will never learn to honour her own. Sindu, your wish will be fulfilled.’
With her head clean-shaven, Sindu had a round-face, and her eyes looked big and beautiful.
On Monday morning, I dropped her at her school. It was a sight to watch my hairless Sindu walking towards her classroom. She turned around and waved. I waved back with a smile. Just then, a boy alighted from a car, and shouted, ‘Sinduja, please wait for me!’ What struck me was the hairless head of that boy. ‘May be, that is the in-stuff’, I thought.
‘Sir, your daughter Sinduja is great indeed!’ Without introducing herself, a lady got out of the car, and continued, ‘that boy who is walking along with your daughter is my son Harish. He is suffering from… leukemia’. She paused to muffle her sobs. ‘Harish could not attend the school for the whole of the last month. He lost all his hair due to the side effects of the chemotherapy. He refused to come back to school fearing the unintentional but cruel teasing of the schoolmates. Sinduja visited him last week, and promised him that she will take care of the teasing issue. But, I never imagined she would sacrifice her lovely hair for the sake of my son!
Sir, you and your wife are blessed to have such a noble soul as your daughter.’
I stood transfixed and then, I wept. ‘My little Angel, you are teaching me how selfless real love is!’
The happiest people on this planet are not those who live on their own terms but are those who change their terms for the ones whom they love !!
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If this story made you realise what is selfless love, then give out your love to someone out there! They will be glad to receive it from you!

Important in weiqi

online competition are played base on respect n trust of ur opponent becoz u cant see each other face to face....becoz of that many ppl tends to ask stronger player to play for them...y? first its broke the respect n trust bond between the other player....second of all, if ppl were to see that this happen n if they report to the higher ups wont that spoil ur image and if u r from some famous school, wont that spoil the school image too, here intergity is all broken, the higher ups will not believe in that famous school again, what if they break this kind of rules again for other competition like competition only for beginners, the higher ups will think that the famous school is trying to cheat again by sending in a player who wasnt a beginners....yes intergity no more.....ppl will say so what its just a competition, ya its true but that defeat the purpose of having this competition....imaging all the ppl start asking stronger players to play for them, wont this comp be meaningless, its just like stronger player playing against stronger player but just that in the end the one that asked the stronger player will get the prize n so y is there a need for a comp for the weaker players....n the rules didnt state that this kind of things cant happen becoz this comp was formed base on trust that the players wont cheat............................i just cant understand y they can still do it n laugh away about it.....its just so sad n angry.....

No names where mention in the making of this post....